Friday, January 11, 2013

To Be Comfortable In My Own Skin

WARNING!! Today's post features scantily-clad female celebrities. Tasteful, but scantily-clad.

I wanted to preface this with the warning, because I don't want any hate mail saying, "Oh my GOD, you had the audacity to post pictures of half-naked women on your blog? How dare you?! You should be so ashamed of yourself! And to think, I was actually going to read THIS post..."

Yeah, to those who want to get angry, go ahead, but I warned you, so your anger is misdirected.

Now, on to the reason I am posting this. Anyone who knows me or has even seen a picture of me knows that I am not a size 2. Or even 12. Or even close to either of those numbers. Never have been. I've never felt comfortable in my own skin. But I decided that starting Monday at midnight, I'm going to begin the journey to lose weight and for once, I'm going to be the size I should be. It's going to be a long long road, and I refuse to post my "before" picture until after I've lost a significant amount of weight, but I want to make my journey public so I'm less likely to fall behind and less likely to not meet my goals. If I know I'm going to embarrass myself, I have the determination to do it.

Why am I waiting until Monday? Because all I have in the house right now is unhealthy food, and I can *hopefully* go grocery shopping Monday.

So here's my motivation. As I mentioned before, I'm not going to post my own "before" pic yet, but I will post a dramatization. And here it is:

Minus the boobs. I have no boobs. Lol, okay, so that's an extreme dramatization. Here's me (fully clothed):

This is me with my husband right around Christmastime. Please note, I was laughing and my head was leaning back a little, so it's a pretty rough pic of me. But clearly, I'm two of my hubby and the fat rolls are plentiful. 

So, my shame is out there for the world to see. Now, another part of my motivation are the bodies I frickin want like none other:

Yeah. I'm going to get there. It's gonna take me a while, but please, by all means, feel free to motivate me, cause I can use all the encouragement I can get!

I figure if I put this out there where people can haggle me (and encourage me!) then maybe-just maybe-I'll actually stick to it. I really want to be happy with my body for the first time in my life, and it's going to take a whole lot of really hard work to get there.

Also, anyone who wants to join in on this weight loss journey, jump on board. Comment on here and let me know, we'll motivate each other!! 

Cheers to the new goal to be comfortable in my own skin!


  1. Good luck Ashley! I started my own weight-loss journey last year. I've lost 30 pounds so far with a bit of a back-slide b/c of Thanksgiving/Christmas. It was probably the 7th or 8th time I've tried it, but this time it stuck for some reason. So don't be afraid to back-slide a bit, as long as you're diligent and keep at it, the rewards will be evident soon enough.

    1. Thanks, Josh!! It's been a rollercoaster for years, and I've finally reached that point where I'm too dang old for anymore excuses. Yes, I do have a medical condition that is an underlying cause for it, but I'm just determined to kick it in the balls. :)

    2. And congratulations, by the way! It's an awesome feeling when you do lose the weight, and I bet it's even better when it stays off. ;)

  2. You go girl!
    Apart from the medical condition, do take a moment to figure out why your body thinks you're safer being larger. Until that's worked out, it will win the fight to keep you safe. The body thinks of stress in terms Famine or Temperature where fat's concerned. It will add to preserve against famine if you're eating empty calories. And any sense of insufficiency can drive the famine response. Check for stress - raised cortisol is your worst enemy when trying to ditch a fatsuit. I'm on a similar journey but I don't have any underlying conditions to blame. :P

    1. Thanks, Dragonwyst!! And I am definitely going to be safe and smart about it. After researching and reading everything I could get my hands on about it, I finally think I developed a plan that will work well for my body. It's definitely going to be slow, but I'm excited about it and ready to finally let that skinny girl out! :P